The road forward....

I am doing well... On Saturday morning I managed to negotiate to be released on my own recognizance waiting for the fluid around my heart to drain. Ever since I began taking the steroids, I have been feeling much better. No more chest pains, no more need for pain pills, but must importantly my pulse has been going -meaning my heart is working less hard. Once i made my case to my doc, he agreed to run it by the cardiologists and they agreed i was safe to go home!!! Victory is mine!!!! I managed to have a great weekend here at home, and I am sure all of you would agree that any moment at home is much better than in the hospital.

As for the road forward... First thing in the morning tomorrow, i am gonna call the scheduling office to schedule another cardiac echo to see how much fluid is left around my heart, to see if we need to draw it off with a needle. In any case the second round of chemo is going to be delayed until this all clears up. But i am kinda preparing for the end of this week. In a way, i am really eager to get back in finish what we were supposed to do last week... It is really important that we keep this treatment going with minimal delays, but there is question that now was definitely not the right time to start a round of chemo. In all likely hood, i will be taken off the drug ATRA that seems to be causing me all this trouble. There are several other drugs out there that are just as effective out there at curing this disease.

As for me I am definitely coming to realize that there is no easy road with cancer. There are unexpected twists and turns at every corner it seems like. Some of them pretty darned scary. But I can really only see one way of dealing em' which is take them one at time, go one day at a time, and believe that every day that goes by brings you just one day closer to being cured.

Today for me is a great day... I am feeling good and getting even better, I am at home :)... and most importantly I know that i am in remission. Those are the things that I am focusing on... As for what happens tomorrow... i guess i will find out tomorrow... I can't really look much further ahead, simply because i have learned that there is no way that I predict exactly along which path this road is going.